zumba #5

after hearing from Lauren that the Irvine class got to the extent that it was so busy Lyna was having to turn people away, I made plans with Mel to pick her up quite a bit earlier so that we'd get there in good time.

despite me getting stuck behind every bus and every old biddy on the road, we got there a little after half past 6, Lyna's now only letting people in through the buzzer system and taking money at the door so she can keep track on the numbers. We were among the first there, along with 2 other girls - we got chatting to Lyna and she was explaining about the fruitless search to find a bigger space and that she feels keeping it first come first served is the fairest way to do it - which we agree with.

I still have to giggle when I remember this, Lyna approached me and said how she was on my FB page, and saw that I have a son who's 14 (he's actually 15 beginning of next month!)... but working it out with my age... hehe! one of the benefits of having a step-son only 13 years younger than you is that you get a lot of weird looks and questions (i must be the only person on earth who views that as a benefit! lol) - I still love going to pick the boys up from school if they're ill and I get scanned by the receptionist and then usually get a comment of "you're WAY to young to be his mum!" lmao! I think it's aided by the fact that in the school environment they refer to me as their mum... i guess it's such a messy situation it's better to keep it that way, it's still pretty much accepted for kids to have fathers who they aren't in contact with, but it's still quite an unusual situation for kids to have absent mothers. Anyway, they've lived with me and Paul full time now for nearly 9 years, they were only 4 and 6 when they came to stay with us - I don't even know if Kieren remembers all that much about his mother....

anyhooo.... class was once again really busy last night, Lyna did have to end up turning some people away which is a real shame, but for health and safety a line has to be drawn somewhere.

it was REALLY hot in the dance studio too, come the end all the mirrors had misted up! the studio doesn't have any direct doors or windows to the outside, unlike the jennie campbell studio. I was sweating buckets and my top was sticking to me big style - it was quite gross really!

I had a really good workout and my co-ordination wasn't too bad either - I've not got those more tricky moves licked yet but I'm getting there.

come the cool-down... this was my time to shine - I love how flexible i still am! (I showed Mel that I can actually still do a crab before we started class!) but balance wise... I'm pretty crap - I was wobbling about all over the place and it seemed to set of something of a chain reaction with even Lyna losing her balance in the end and giving me that frightening glare she does. hehe. note to self: use Mel for stability next time!

Now I do have to admit, Lyna was right with the stretches - I really put a lot into them and I am actually OK today! I was a bit pessimistic and made comment that it doesn't matter if we stretch or not, we're still sore the next day... so I take that back Lyna, you were right.

We stayed behind a bit so Mel could ask Lyna about doing a sponsored Zumba, I plonked my arse down in front of the fan for a while which was luuuuuuuuuuurvly, and then Lyna attacked us with body spray... think that was a nice way of saying we were a bit stinky! hehe. Oh and it's official, Lyna does work up a sweat during class along with the rest of us, and she changes her top - so she practices what she preaches at the beginning of every class. I am most definitely going to bring a change of top to next class... and although contracting pneumonia would be a good excuse for getting my exams put back a bit, Lyna's threatened to not let us back in if we make ourselves ill - so it's not worth it!

drum roll......

i have lost at least an inch from my bum/hips and an inch from my waist!

I've decided I'm staying away from the scales for now so have no idea about what's going on weight wise - but I am chuffed to bits!

still no appetite..

yesterday yet again I had virtually nothing of an appetite - I managed HALF a crumpet in the morning. I'd made 2 but got half way through the first and really couldn't face eating any more.

I was at my friend Mary's yesterday afternoon after handing in my essay, Mary is in my class at Uni and is doing really well - but she really lacks a lot of confidence in her academic abilities. she was starting to have a bit of a freak out about the sociology essay so I said I'd pop around.

she was on the verge of crying when I got there but she said as soon as I walked in the door she instantly felt better - i must have some strange calming effect on her....

anyway, long story short she finished her essay, ended up really the only things I helped with was showing her how to search .pdf documents faster and computery things like that. Don't even think I helped her with her actual essay coz she wouldn't let me do that even if i were to offer! lol that and we chose different topics to write about so I prob couldn't have helped her even if I wanted to! lol

she got us a take-out to say thanks for the help, I got a small portion of vegetable pakoras, which I ate, and Mary also bought a bag of white choc chip cookies (the big ones!) - I got 1/2 way through 1 and then started feeling uncomfortably full.

I have been making sure I have been keeping my fluid levels up, but they're not up so high that they'd surpress my appetite like this....

last night I felt really bloated, which probably isn't helping my appetite in the slightest, and I've woken this morning feeling quite woozy headed, I'll make sure I get the rest of the home made soup down me today, even if I have to have it in several small meals - I've got Zumba tonight and I really don't wanna end up passing out! lol

wha th huh? I'm up! I'm up!

I hate it when you wake with a start - I'm so not used to it anymore, I have one of those alarm clocks with the light that slowly turns on simulating the sun rise. last winter when i was still working I was finding it really hard getting up in the mornings with just a normal alarm clock blaring in my ear - it's just totally not a natural way to wake up! since getting my all singing, all dancing, Wake-Up Light I've been so much better at getting up in the mornings.... I'm actually waking long before the radio goes off.

Dunno why I woke with a start today, I need to go into Uni to hand in my essay (yup, an 80 mile round journey just to hand in an 1500 word essay! fan-bloody-tastic huh?) but other than that i've got nothing urgent going on today that caused me to wake so suddenly.

I suppose I better get a move on - I said to Mary I'd pop by hers as well (she lives only a few mins drive from the uni) and I don't wanna be arriving at dinner time! lol

lack of appetite...

something must be wrong with me.

I've hardly eaten all day - in fact I've barely eaten since yesterday afternoon - today I've had 1 slice of toast at brekkie, 1/2 a bowl of home-made vegetable & lentil soup for lunch, hubby made me dinner but I hardly managed any of it, literally a few mouthfuls (a few quorn chicken chunks in a tomato sauce and a few peas).

and the soup I only had because I really felt like I should eat something as I was starting to feel light headed, but I really wasn't feeling hungry at all!

this is quite unlike me!

I was wanting to start cutting down a bit but this is just ridiculous!

I don't wanna end up passing out on Tuesday, I've embarrassed myself in front of Lyna enough as it is thank you very much.... my god that would be completely mortifying if that were to happen! lol! hence why I've been forcing myself to eat.

I've even just made myself one of those student-friendly snack-in-a-cup type things which aren't great- but aren't all that bad either, it's tomato and herb pasta... it hadn't even finished absorbing all the water before I decided I really didn't want it...

maybe it's just coz I've been quite stressed with this damn essay and upcoming exams? but then I already know that I really only have to scrape passes in my exams to pass the modules so why would i be worried? I know that I already know more than enough to pass the exams...

OK my essay isn't brilliant, but I've really read as much as I can handle and... well I thought my 2nd workbook was a pile of rubbish and ended up getting 68% for it, so my perceptions in my level of work is evidently quite off....

hum... let the pondering continue.

you just wait though, I'll wake up tomorrow and be ravenous alllllll day! lol

yahay!

i have FINISHED my Sociology essay.

1329 words.

turnitin originality report (references excluded) 0%!

gonna go hand it in tomorrow, got zumba on tuesday and I'm gonna need all the energy i can spare without a trip into glassgow!

some days... being female sucks!

hormones - bloody hate the things - nothing but trouble!

my body has to do everything OTT, it really doesn't ever do anything by halves - so when the hormones hit, they hit hard and they hit fast.

I was perfectly fine yesterday, I was almost giddy in fact, then all of a sudden it just disappeared and my mood and self-esteem plummeted, i began feeling really angry and embarrassed at myself for acting like a stupid silly child so much lately.... even though I know in my rational head it was all in good fun and was never taken too far.

I ended up heading off to bed simply because I couldn't face being around anyone, but just ended up laying there with my brain going 1,000 miles an hour, so i got up and did some of the stretches we do in class, it always cheers me up when I can bend so well so i thought it was worth a shot.

don't know why I didn't turn the lights on, but if you're gonna do stretches, i recommend that you do! balance was all over the place, didn't fall or anything but was REALLY wobbly- my head evidently wasn't sure which way was up!

it probably wasn't helped by the fact that i hated the dinner I'd made so all i had to eat since mid-afternoon was half a bag of salad and a non-fat yogurt!

yeah, in hindsight, probably not the best idea....

and it didn't really work, i was still awake at nearly 2am.

I woke bright eyed at just before 8am, which is a rarity for me on any day, let alone a Sunday, and I've really just been mulling about the house ever since.

I've spent some time on the rowing machine this morning in the hope of it getting my adrenaline going again, but really - it's just as boring as being on the exercise bike. I mean, I've always thought the rowing machine and exercise bike were a bit dull - but after you do a workout like zumba, they are just so tediously monotonously boring that I really can't bear to be on them for any length of time, even if I've got music going etc.... they're just so.... dull.... uninspiring... monotonous... take your pick or feel free to add!

just heard a rumble of thunder from outside - great. the changes in the weather really seem to be reflecting in my moods lately....

I've got to get my Sociology essay done today, I'm nearly there with the main body - I'm at just over 800 words and I'm aiming for about 1000. the introduction and conclusion pretty much write themselves afterwards so I'm not worrying about them just yet.

one positive thing about today is I don't seem anywhere near as bloated as I have been these past few days (I very nearly couldn't get my combat trousers on for zumba on Friday, which was bordering on mortifying!) so I'm actually seeing a bit of a difference now from all the workouts- I'm actually really starting to noticed a change in my upper arms and I know my hips are trimmer than they were before, just a shame thanks to the bursitis on my left hip that there's always a prominent swelling which i am hugely self conscious about...