when you're so tired you could cry...

it's been a while since I've been at that stage, but last night I was there.

Caelan's not well - he came to me yesterday morning saying his throat was sore - not a usual complaint of his - and as soon as he lifted his head I could see his glands bulging from his neck. i suffered from tonsillitis frequently as a kid so this instantly got alarm bells ringing... but it was odd that apart from the sore throat he wasn't actually ill

but i decided to err on the side of caution and phoned my placement to say I wouldn't be in and got him an emergency doctors appointment. doctor confirmed that it's a pretty nasty case of tonsillitis and he's now on a 10 day course of antibiotics.

I went off to Zumba last night with him munching away quite happily to some cheesy pasta- the next time I saw him it was quite a different sight!

it was about 11:30 and I was just about dozing off when I heard him yelling from his room that he'd been sick, went through and what a sorry sight my wee boy was- white as a sheet, drenched with sweat, shivvering... the works

I delt with Caelan while Paul stripped the bed, gave him some more calpol and ibuprofen and we cuddled up on the sofa for a while.... well I say a while - until nearly 3am! my god kids TV is rubbish at that time of night...

I started really struggling to stay awake and so once one of the absolutely awful programmes had finished I hiked us both back to our beds, I felt horrible for it, he was wanting to stay with me, but I needed to sleep and I wasn't going to get any on the sofa. of course as soon as I got him into his bed he started being sick again.... anyway, got him sorted and settled and he went to sleep pretty quickly...

until just gone 5am when I woke to him yelling he'd been sick again- went through to him and he asked about going downstairs with me, again I felt absolutely horrible for it but I had to say no, I was so tired I could have cried, I was pretty much falling asleep on my feet!

I have some vague recollection of Paul coming through at that point as it wasn't far off the time he'd be getting up anyway, so he gave Caelan some more calpol and resettled him.

of course despite falling back into bed I never really got back to sleep, brain on over-drive of the checklist for the morning of all the people I needed to call - I'm on placement at the moment so it's a bit of a bugger, but the plus side is that because I'm on in placement within a school they fully appreciate the fact that kids get sick and when they're sick the best place for them is at home.

I guess I'm quite lucky, apart from when he had pneumonia when he was 14mths old (which landed him in hospital for a couple of days) he's never really been REALLY ill, not to the extent where he's just cuddling into my side feeling totally sorry for himself and me feeling awful wishing there was something more I could do, but as I told him I know what it feels like to have tonsillitis, I know how awful he feels, but there isn't really anything more I can do, we just have to wait for the medicine to start working - the wee boy is being an absoulte star patient, he's only complained a couple of times, other than that he's just been lying on the sofa, sipping water, watching TV, taking his medicine and just getting on with getting better.

and he is still being an absolute sweetheart - it's my birthday on thursday and he got quite upset that we wouldn't be able to go out for a birthday meal because he's ill, of course at his age your birthday is just about the most important day of the year, and he just can't understand why I said not to worry, we'll just have it on another day when he's better.... i'm quite happy to postpone my birthday and stay 28 for a few extra days ;)

*$&"^%("&$^£*£ SNAKE!!!

that frigging snake of ours has given me a few extra greys today.

i was already pretty harassed this morning as the stuff i put in the tumble with the intent of wearing today hadn't dried, and it seemed every 3 seconds i had a boy banging on the door asking for something... then Kieren came to the door

"the snake's escaped"

i'm standing there doing my make-up, in nothing but a towelling dressing gown and hair up in a towel turban!

so i dash down the stairs asking where he saw the snake - "next to the photos"... in our living room that really doesn't narrow it down any.

I spot him hanging off of one of the photos on the wall next to the TV just in time to see him disappear behind the unit.

some of the units behind the TV have no back in order for the cables to get from dvd player, sky box etc to the TV... but of course those on ground level all have their backs.

eventually it was just a case of removing the ferret from the room, shutting the dogs out, plugging the gap under the door and just dealing with it when i got back from placement.

it was quite funny going into placement, when people asked the usual "how are you today" to explain about the escaped snake - cue many horrified looks and questions of "are you SURE it's not in your bag?!" lol

i had expected on getting home to have to search for ages before finding him - and was pleasantly surprised to find him within about 3 seconds of being in the room - he was just about to clamber into one of the toy draws.

so back he went into his viv and a jammed on of the lamps up against the door.

2hrs later i hear an odd noise, look up and see the snake half way out of his viv! he's evidently discovered the weak spots on the door and now has the strength to wedge himself into the gap and prise it open!

so now he's safely secured away in the travel carrier we use for the ferret, it has a lot of ventilation holes but none are big enough for him to get his head out of, let alone his body... so that's going to be his home until we get new locks for the viv!

he is still trying to get out but he's not gonna manage it.... i hope!

lol we had enough people weary enough about coming into our house with our unusual collection of pets.... i think there's gonna be a fair few more now who will point blank refuse to come anywhere near our house with there being a chance of having a snake wandering about freely!!

when it's been one of those days!

and boy has it been one of those days!!

woke up to snow
car wouldn't start
had to foot it quick-style to get C to school
it was hailing really heavily
I was 10 mins late for placement
because I have a curtosy phone I didn't have the school's number to let them know
went straight into a PE lesson
go hit in the face with a basketball
straight into a drama class
kis in class very hyper and not even listening let alone doing anything asked of them
3pm it was chucking it down
was soaked before i got anywhere near creche
walking down the highstreet a car hit a puddle and splashed me up the legs
picked C up from creche after he'd only been in 20 mins
text from D asking to get picked up - despite the fact he saw us leaving on foot.
it continued to rain the whole way home
soaked to the bone and frozen solid by the time we got in the door
still no first aid certificate in post
boys come in and instantly start with all the questions

so now i am gradually thawing out.
I had intended on going to both the regular and toning zumba classes tonight but not going to be able to make the regular class now as I have to wait for P to get home with the new battery for my car... ho hum... don't think i'd have had the energy anyway after the day i've had!

so my day has been pretty crap... hopefully it will end on a better note!

do you ever have a reoccuring theme in your dreams?

i do, and it's an odd one too.

a loose tooth at the back of my mouth... hanging on by a thread most of the time

i've lost track of the number of dreams i've had where this has made appearance.

it's odd - coz i don't have any lose teeth, and considering adult teeth have roots and aren't like baby teeth that are held in by the gum- why would it be hanging out just by a thread?

last night I was in a dream about a Zumba training ('big surprise!' i hear you say, but this is the first dream I can ever remember having about Zumba) it made yet another appearance.

i got fed up with it and yanked it out!